Ty's thoughts

Someone To Fall Back On

I’ll never be a knight in armor with a sword in hand or a kamikaze fighter
Don’t count on me to storm the barricades or take a stand, or hold my ground

You’ll never see and scars or wounds. I Don’t walk on coals, I wont walk on water

I am no prince. I am no saint. I am not anyone’s wildest dream But I can stand behind and be someone to fall back on

Some comedy. You’re bruised and beaten down and I’m the one who’s looking for a favor
Still honestly, you don’t believe me but the things I have are the things you need

You look at me like I don’t make sense. Like a waist of time. Like it serves no purpose

I am no prince. I am no saint. And if that’s what you believe you need You’re wrong, you don’t need much. You need someone to fall back on

And I’ll be that. I’ll take your side if I’m the only one. I’m used to that I’ve been alone, I’d rather be the half of us. The least of you. The best of me

And I’ll be your prince. I’ll be your saint. I will go crashing through fences in your name I will, I swear! I’ll be someone to fall back on

And I’ll be the one who waits. For as long as you’ll let me.
I will be the one you need

I’ll be someone to fall back on

Your prince. Your saint. The one you believe you need

I’ll be

I’ll be

Someone to fall back on

Another song that I have listened to a lot today…

Time is going by, so much faster then I,
and I’m starting to regret not spending all of it with you

And I, I’m wondering why, I’ve kept this bottled inside
So I’m starting to regret not tellin all of it to you

So if I haven’t yet, I’ve gotta let you know 

You’re never gonna be alone, from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall
You’re never gonna be alone
I’ll hold you till the hurt is gone

And now as long as I can, I’m holding on with both hands
Cuz forever I believe that there’s nothing I could need but you

So if I haven’t yet, I’ve gotta let you know

You’re never gonna be alone, from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We’re gonna take the world on
I’ll hold you till the hurt is gone

You gotta live every single day like it’s the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don’t let it slip away. Could be our only one. You know it’s only just begun
Every single day, like it’s the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes… 

Time is going by, so much faster then I, 
and I’m starting to regret not spending all of it with you

You’re never gonna be alone, from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We’re gonna take the world on
I’ll hold you till the hurt is gone

I’m gonna be there all of the way
I wont be missing one more day
I’m gonna be there all of the way
I wont be missing one more day 

Needtobreathe writes about my life…I swear!!

“Let’s start over. Don’t be afraid, cuz I won’t keep track.
Let’s climb to the top, if you won’t look down, I won’t look back.”

“Pain is alive in a broken heart. The past never does go away
We were born to love and we’re born to pay the price for our mistakes.
Grace, she comes with a heavy load. Memories, they can’t be erased.
Like a pill I’ve swallowed that makes me well, but leaves an awful taste.”

“I hope that you could understand. That this is not what I had planned.
Please don’t worry now. Cuz it will turn around.”

“Yeah the years go by like stones under rushing water. We only know, we only know when it’s gone.”

I’m trying…

so hard to do things right, and change my life and make good choices. I really am, but it seems like I always screw something up in one way or another. And then there are times when I don’t have control over a certain situation at all and I STILL end up being the bad guy! I’m so tired of feeling guilty about my past and my life. I’m so tired of being on edge all the time just waiting for my word to come crashing down! I’m tired of not being able to be trusted. I’m just tired.

And why does this have to happen when I’m too far away to do anything about it!!?? Because all I can do is type. And the words “I’m sorry.” can only go so far when they’re typed…

Well, I’m sorry… 

Small Things…

Isn’t it amazing how the “small” things in life can mean the most? I’m beginning to notice and enjoy things I have never really noticed or found enjoyable before. Like small street vendors selling crappy movies for more then what they’re really worth. Usually I just walk by and ignore people like that but today I stopped and looked in. In a world filled with giant retail stores and major companies, we tend to look past simple things like this. I for one would much rather go to a small, intimate little independent place that is focused on making people happy, and pay a little extra for something that will be special and mean more to me then go to a major store that only cares about the money they make. Take hold of the small things in life.